i know. u dont have to forgive him and im not expecting him to accept u w open arms either. anyone w eyes can see that wont happen.
i know u two will hate each other. maybe forever. but lets just... i dont know. maybe this time, can we not have anyone else die? i dont know if i can handle another... person im close to or who i consider as family die again.
and hes not going to poison me, vi. he knows not to lie to me ever again. he doesnt like im in contact w u, but hes going to have to get over it and deal w it. im not going to stop being around u, talk to u, or see u as my big sis bc it makes him feel some kind of way. especially when we agreed we are going to start over. i know ive been... shitty. but... ill try a lil harder this time ok?
if he runs his mouth i can't make any promises right now. him showing up is like ripping off a goddamn scab.
[she's trying to work through her own trauma too, so. every time she looks at him, she sees Vander dying in front of her. struggling to speak his last words.]
we've all been shitty. it's not really much of a contest. but i'm going to try, too. for you... and only for you.
i get it. hes a talker. he use to yank my ear off with lectures, ha ha.
( now she doesn't mind them so much. knowing he died by her hands, she would sit and listen to him for hours just so she knows he is breathing still. )
i know im suppose to say sorry about breaking ur stuff. but i dont know, i like breaking things so its hard to say sorry hahaha!
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i know u two will hate each other. maybe forever. but lets just... i dont know. maybe this time, can we not have anyone else die? i dont know if i can handle another... person im close to or who i consider as family die again.
and hes not going to poison me, vi. he knows not to lie to me ever again. he doesnt like im in contact w u, but hes going to have to get over it and deal w it. im not going to stop being around u, talk to u, or see u as my big sis bc it makes him feel some kind of way. especially when we agreed we are going to start over. i know ive been... shitty. but... ill try a lil harder this time ok?
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[she's trying to work through her own trauma too, so. every time she looks at him, she sees Vander dying in front of her. struggling to speak his last words.]
we've all been shitty. it's not really much of a contest. but i'm going to try, too. for you... and only for you.
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( now she doesn't mind them so much. knowing he died by her hands, she would sit and listen to him for hours just so she knows he is breathing still. )
i know im suppose to say sorry about breaking ur stuff. but i dont know, i like breaking things so its hard to say sorry hahaha!
( she has a bizarre kink. )
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you don't have to do that next time you need something, you know. just let me know. i'll let you have it.
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im. kidding. heh. trying to bring in the laughs ha ha.
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just remember what i said, okay?
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love u.
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