[In other circumstances, the way he turns to her would be cute. It's hard to think about something like that when they'd failed to protect someone, though. Everything had happened so fast; there'd been no avoiding it. Breathing hard from the exertion of it all, the fight itself and the sheer power Scott had displayed, Kotone tears her gaze away from Caitlyn's body -- her corpse -- and finally looks up to Scott. There's grief in her eyes, but resignation, too; sometimes people die, and there's nothing that could be done about it.
Even still, she smiles up at him. It can't quite reach her eyes under the circumstances, but it's there nonetheless.]
Thanks, Scott.
[It would be a lie to say there's not a part of her that's angry -- all that power, and there was nothing ~Phoenix~ could do for Caitlyn?? -- but that's not Scott's fault. It's not, and she reaches out to take his hand as if to prove it.] We'll get through this.
[Maybe it's the knowledge that his time here is about to end. Or those feelings from that other Scott are influencing him even more. Maybe it's finally his own ability to actually see Kotone and notice when her smile doesn't quite reach her eyes to hide the grief in them. It's mostly likely all three reasons and perhaps even more that lets Scott to take her smaller hand into his, simply holding her as that stoic visor stares down at her.
Somewhere, he knows he's upset about Caitlyn, but he can't let himself be consumed by that feeling either. Not if he wants to maintain even this level of control. The fact that he can even do that is a sign of Phoenix's weakening hold on him-- his own very existence about to disappear, but before he goes...]
You're doing it too.
[He just keeps his intense gaze on Kotone. She can handle it, she's proven that already.]
Hiding your pain, except behind a smile. I didn't notice back then.
[She tilts her head with a bit of confusion at what he first says, not quite seeing the connection until he elaborates. There's a weary quirk to her lips then, a wordless "you've caught me" as she shrugs one shoulder.]
I didn't want you to. [It's a simple answer to a simple statement, an acknowledgement that he's right. She squeezes his hand in hers without looking away and adds quietly,] But I show Scott.
[Her Scott, it goes without saying. She keeps her eyes on his visor without flinching or letting go of his hand as she continues,] So... I hope you have somebody you can show your pain to, too. When you have to.
[And while she doesn't say it, either, she hopes it's clear in her face. Even if he feels like he doesn't have anyone, he has her. He'll definitely forget her when he goes back where he belongs, but maybe he can take a little piece of the love she feels for her Scott with him when he goes. Even if he doesn't understand it, she hopes he knows he's not alone.]
[Scott acknowledges, only feeling slightly odd that it's both him and not him at the same time. The multiverse is far less strange of a concept to him, especially when he's currently being possessed by a cosmic force while having intense emotions towards a girl he's only met one before. They're very similar feelings he had for another girl back home, hair just as red as hers, but gone. It's nice having that reminder though.
And she'll come back. Jean always does. Even if their relationship can also be extremely complicated and not always smooth, they... always find each other. It just hurts a little knowing that she won't be there when he immediately returns. He won't know how long it will be before he sees her smile again. He'll just have to bear it though.]
...I will. She'll be there, eventually.
[He doesn't say her name, maybe he doesn't need to. Scott lifts his other hand to Kotone's cheek, brushing one thumb across the skin there, like he's acknowledging her presence-- her memory and committing it to himself despite the odds. It'd just be nice to remember her.]
[And she means it. In spite of all of her own complicated feelings about Jean Grey, if it means Scott has somebody he can trust, confide in, love with his whole heart and soul and be loved in return -- that's enough. That has to be enough.
Her smile is wan, but it's just a little more sincere as she nods. Even if, in the future, her Scott leaves without her, he'll hopefully have that same kind of relationship that he can take comfort in. She hopes so.
The smile lingers as she closes her eyes, leans into the gentle brush of a hand that's both familiar and not.]
I hope we meet again. When things are better.
[It's unlikely, almost impossible, but... well, hasn't this place proved again and again that nothing is impossible? It's an honest sentiment nonetheless.]
[He can at least understand why that other Scott feels so strongly about her. If he had enough time, he would've liked to learn more about her, know the lonely girl behind those smiles. However, that's not his role here, he can only leave it to the other Scott. Besides, he's already taken too much of his time-- he should not be replacing a version of him that seems far happier than he ever was at that age. A part of him wants to tell her to watch over her Scott, but he knows that he doesn't need to.
Not to mention that he believes that he should be watching over her.
There's one slight nod from Scott, maybe agreeing with seeing her again. Or just acknowledging her once more, his hand stroking her cheek before he steps away and just like that-- all that heat surrounding the atmosphere suddenly vanishes and the familiar form of her Scott stands in his place, staring incomprehensibly elsewhere and not fully aware of what's going on.]
[The air feels almost cold with the older Scott's abrupt disappearance, but that's fine. That's good, even, because it means Phoenix isn't here anymore. Kotone darts forward, cupping Scott's cheeks in both of her hands and forcing him to look at her. Not at Caitlyn, not at the aftermath, but just at her for a moment, hoping to ground him.]
[Memories are still sliding in place and it's overwhelming, almost impossible to parse through. With each image coming right after one another, it's difficult to keep focus on one thing, to really understand what went on other than the knowledge that he glitched once more. The answer comes suddenly though, that familiar presence of unlimited power and fire and Scott nearly starts trembling, sick in his stomach until he feels two gentle if firm hands grip his face to look at their owner.
Kotone.
She's here. She's alive. Unlike last time. He did not come back and be greeted by her still corpse. And Ryoji isn't dead, right? He promised he wouldn't do something like that. Kotone doesn't seem upset with him and... that has to mean something, unless she's holding back. It's possible, but Scott wants to believe just for right now.
That knot of anxiety starts untangling itself, his head nodding as he raises his own hands to hers to keep them here. She'll probably notice that his are shaking though, so scared about what happened. What he might have done.]
Y-You're here. [His voice is full of relief, voice already filled with emotion because he didn't lose her again.] Y-you're warm.
[Her hands are warm. She's looking at him with that spark in her eyes.]
[Last time he'd glitched out into that Scott, she hadn't been there to catch him. This time, she can, running her thumbs along his cheeks and giving him the smallest of relieved smiles as she nods. They're both here, and hopefully it will be the last time her Scott has to deal with Phoenix. Hopefully this is the end of that.
But she should tell him before he sees for himself, right? Because he'll think the worst, and so her voice is as quick as it is soft when she says,] A monster got Caitlyn. The other Scott got the monster.
[So for the moment, they're safe. She's safe, Scott's safe, and Caitlyn... hopefully it'll be just like it had for Kotone herself, and she'll be back after what just feels like a nap. Kotone keeps her hands on Scott's cheeks, gazing up at him and trying to be the steady strength for him that he always is for her.]
[There's no hallucinating the person in front of him. He's not imagining anything, it's truly her touch stroking against his cheeks. For a moment, it feels like everything is actually okay. She looks okay.
There's a sharp intake of breath from him when Kotone mentions Caitlyn, his face lightly shuddering in her grip. Hearing about this firsthand lets that particular memory surge forth in his mind: a monster striking Caitlyn from behind. Her body broken and motionless on the ground and it's still there, it's probably still there, and Scott's eyes shut behind his glasses to stop those tears from springing forth. He both wants and doesn't want to see her-- this is someone that's been a long friend of his. They've known each other for a year and he couldn't save her.
He's only keeping this steady because of Kotone's presence.]
He-- Scott, Phoenix...? They did good? [He asks again, almost for reassurance, seeking some level of good news and comfort right now. His eyes reopen, the spark of red returning from behind his shades, as he focuses only on the person he loves the most.]
[Him, not Phoenix, because it's only Scott's own force of will that had kept them as safe as it had. She inhales a soft breath and runs her thumbs gently beneath his glasses in wordless permission that if he wants to cry, he can.]
I'm glad you're back, though, [she adds more softly without taking her eyes off him.] I'm glad you're you.
[And hopefully he'll stay that way for as long as they're both here. She'd meant what she'd said, about hoping to meet the other Scott again, but not without her Scott. Never without him.]
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Even still, she smiles up at him. It can't quite reach her eyes under the circumstances, but it's there nonetheless.]
Thanks, Scott.
[It would be a lie to say there's not a part of her that's angry -- all that power, and there was nothing ~Phoenix~ could do for Caitlyn?? -- but that's not Scott's fault. It's not, and she reaches out to take his hand as if to prove it.] We'll get through this.
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Somewhere, he knows he's upset about Caitlyn, but he can't let himself be consumed by that feeling either. Not if he wants to maintain even this level of control. The fact that he can even do that is a sign of Phoenix's weakening hold on him-- his own very existence about to disappear, but before he goes...]
You're doing it too.
[He just keeps his intense gaze on Kotone. She can handle it, she's proven that already.]
Hiding your pain, except behind a smile. I didn't notice back then.
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I didn't want you to. [It's a simple answer to a simple statement, an acknowledgement that he's right. She squeezes his hand in hers without looking away and adds quietly,] But I show Scott.
[Her Scott, it goes without saying. She keeps her eyes on his visor without flinching or letting go of his hand as she continues,] So... I hope you have somebody you can show your pain to, too. When you have to.
[And while she doesn't say it, either, she hopes it's clear in her face. Even if he feels like he doesn't have anyone, he has her. He'll definitely forget her when he goes back where he belongs, but maybe he can take a little piece of the love she feels for her Scott with him when he goes. Even if he doesn't understand it, she hopes he knows he's not alone.]
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[Scott acknowledges, only feeling slightly odd that it's both him and not him at the same time. The multiverse is far less strange of a concept to him, especially when he's currently being possessed by a cosmic force while having intense emotions towards a girl he's only met one before. They're very similar feelings he had for another girl back home, hair just as red as hers, but gone. It's nice having that reminder though.
And she'll come back. Jean always does. Even if their relationship can also be extremely complicated and not always smooth, they... always find each other. It just hurts a little knowing that she won't be there when he immediately returns. He won't know how long it will be before he sees her smile again. He'll just have to bear it though.]
...I will. She'll be there, eventually.
[He doesn't say her name, maybe he doesn't need to. Scott lifts his other hand to Kotone's cheek, brushing one thumb across the skin there, like he's acknowledging her presence-- her memory and committing it to himself despite the odds. It'd just be nice to remember her.]
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[And she means it. In spite of all of her own complicated feelings about Jean Grey, if it means Scott has somebody he can trust, confide in, love with his whole heart and soul and be loved in return -- that's enough. That has to be enough.
Her smile is wan, but it's just a little more sincere as she nods. Even if, in the future, her Scott leaves without her, he'll hopefully have that same kind of relationship that he can take comfort in. She hopes so.
The smile lingers as she closes her eyes, leans into the gentle brush of a hand that's both familiar and not.]
I hope we meet again. When things are better.
[It's unlikely, almost impossible, but... well, hasn't this place proved again and again that nothing is impossible? It's an honest sentiment nonetheless.]
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Not to mention that he believes that he should be watching over her.
There's one slight nod from Scott, maybe agreeing with seeing her again. Or just acknowledging her once more, his hand stroking her cheek before he steps away and just like that-- all that heat surrounding the atmosphere suddenly vanishes and the familiar form of her Scott stands in his place, staring incomprehensibly elsewhere and not fully aware of what's going on.]
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[The air feels almost cold with the older Scott's abrupt disappearance, but that's fine. That's good, even, because it means Phoenix isn't here anymore. Kotone darts forward, cupping Scott's cheeks in both of her hands and forcing him to look at her. Not at Caitlyn, not at the aftermath, but just at her for a moment, hoping to ground him.]
You okay?
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Kotone.
She's here. She's alive. Unlike last time. He did not come back and be greeted by her still corpse. And Ryoji isn't dead, right? He promised he wouldn't do something like that. Kotone doesn't seem upset with him and... that has to mean something, unless she's holding back. It's possible, but Scott wants to believe just for right now.
That knot of anxiety starts untangling itself, his head nodding as he raises his own hands to hers to keep them here. She'll probably notice that his are shaking though, so scared about what happened. What he might have done.]
Y-You're here. [His voice is full of relief, voice already filled with emotion because he didn't lose her again.] Y-you're warm.
[Her hands are warm. She's looking at him with that spark in her eyes.]
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[Last time he'd glitched out into that Scott, she hadn't been there to catch him. This time, she can, running her thumbs along his cheeks and giving him the smallest of relieved smiles as she nods. They're both here, and hopefully it will be the last time her Scott has to deal with Phoenix. Hopefully this is the end of that.
But she should tell him before he sees for himself, right? Because he'll think the worst, and so her voice is as quick as it is soft when she says,] A monster got Caitlyn. The other Scott got the monster.
[So for the moment, they're safe. She's safe, Scott's safe, and Caitlyn... hopefully it'll be just like it had for Kotone herself, and she'll be back after what just feels like a nap. Kotone keeps her hands on Scott's cheeks, gazing up at him and trying to be the steady strength for him that he always is for her.]
He helped us this time.
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There's a sharp intake of breath from him when Kotone mentions Caitlyn, his face lightly shuddering in her grip. Hearing about this firsthand lets that particular memory surge forth in his mind: a monster striking Caitlyn from behind. Her body broken and motionless on the ground and it's still there, it's probably still there, and Scott's eyes shut behind his glasses to stop those tears from springing forth. He both wants and doesn't want to see her-- this is someone that's been a long friend of his. They've known each other for a year and he couldn't save her.
He's only keeping this steady because of Kotone's presence.]
He-- Scott, Phoenix...? They did good? [He asks again, almost for reassurance, seeking some level of good news and comfort right now. His eyes reopen, the spark of red returning from behind his shades, as he focuses only on the person he loves the most.]
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[Him, not Phoenix, because it's only Scott's own force of will that had kept them as safe as it had. She inhales a soft breath and runs her thumbs gently beneath his glasses in wordless permission that if he wants to cry, he can.]
I'm glad you're back, though, [she adds more softly without taking her eyes off him.] I'm glad you're you.
[And hopefully he'll stay that way for as long as they're both here. She'd meant what she'd said, about hoping to meet the other Scott again, but not without her Scott. Never without him.]