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𝙅𝙞𝙣𝙭 💣/ 𝓹𝓸𝔀𝓭𝓮𝓻 🌸 | ❝ashnikko❞ ([personal profile] opheliac) wrote in [community profile] expiationlogs2023-08-09 09:20 pm

★ AUG. (CATCH ALL); i made knives outta broken ribs. i will be the one to eliminate you

Who: jinx + anyone that wants to do one-on-one stuff with her.
Where: aldrip, possibly rumpitur, and pessiria forest
What: stuff that happens this month.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMISSIONS + OPT-OUT: here.






TOP LEVEL DIRECTORY [ SEMI-CLOSED ] 💣 GO BUMP IN THE NIGHT
[ CLOSED ] 💣 YOUR SILENCE IS THE LOUDEST SOUND
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rebellions: (that fucking earring)

[personal profile] rebellions 2023-08-14 08:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ First he's heard random voices over the charms, and now this? Ragna knows better than to trust something like this ─ especially when these particular voices belong to his little siblings, because of course it's impossible. They're not here, and even if by some miracle (curse, really) they were, they would not be calling out for him like this. Regardless, he still heads out towards the woods to investigate, if only because finding the bastard who dares to mock him by pretending to be his siblings and tearing them limb from limb might provide him some relief.

But the voices go silent before he can find the culprit, leaving him even more frustrated than he was at the start of this whole ordeal. He's almost ready to turn around and go back to the outskirts where he's made his temporary base of operations (which is a fancy way of saying "sleeping on the ground"), when he hears a scream ─ one that feels decidedly more real, more raw than anything that was going on inside his head before. Ragna doesn't even bother to stop and consider whether it really is who he thinks it is, and before he even knows it, he's already running towards the source of the cry. It doesn't take long for him to arrive at the scene and find... Jinx? Lying on the ground? A quick scan of the area tells him there's no immediate danger around, so whatever the hell is going on with her, it doesn't look like she was attacked by a monster, at least. ]


Smurfette...?

[ Forget dumb nicknames and wisecracks; it's clear this isn't the time for this kind of shit. Ragna kneels down next to the girl, catching and holding her wrists in his hands to try and keep her from trashing around (she's the biggest danger to herself like this, after all). If worst comes to worst, he can always knock her out and take her somewhere safe, but for now, he'd rather try and get through to her. ]

Jinx! Hey, look at me!
rebellions: (don't cry)

[personal profile] rebellions 2023-08-15 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Hearing his name from her, however weakly spoken, Ragna lets out a breath he didn't even realize he was holding, relief washing over him. Sure, they're not out of the woods yet, but the fact he's managed to reach her feels like a step in a good direction. He loosens his grip on the girl's wrists, hoping this will get the idea he's not trying to hurt her across. ]

Yeah, it's me.

[ He bites his lip, unsure what else he should say. It's clear as a day Jinx is distressed, but having no clue what caused it, his options of approaching the subject are limited at best. Watching her eyes dart all around like that, however, gives him some vague idea of what might be the issue. ]

There's no one else here. You're fine.

[ That's an exaggeration to be sure, since it's quite obvious she's anything but okay... but how else is he supposed to get her to calm down? All he can think of is to just reassure her that she's safe now, and whatever it was that caused her to freak out ─ whether it was the voices like the ones he heard, or a nightmare, or whatever ─ isn't going to harm her now. ]
rebellions: (keyword #7809201)

[personal profile] rebellions 2023-08-17 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He knows that look on her face ─ the uncertainty, the confusion, the helplessness... none of these fit the Jinx he knows, however briefly. It feels so completely out of place that for a short moment, he has to wonder if he really got the right person here. ]

I─

[ Shit. What does he say to that? He doesn't want to talk about the voices that led him here; that is way too personal to bring up, and he sincerely hopes he drops dead long before the day when he's forced to talk about himself or his past comes. At the same time, he doesn't have it in him to just tell her it's none of her business like he normally would ─ not when she looks so... uncharacteristically vulnerable.

Oh, to hell with it ─ he might as well go with the truth, if as vaguely as he can. It's not like he's gonna come up with anything better anytime soon. ]


... I heard something... someone who can't be here.

[ Ragna is painfully aware he's not just answering her question, but also trying to convince himself that's the case ─ it's just impossible for anyone from his world to end up here. Not even gods can intervene with that place now, after all, so it should be safe from this bullcrap...

The man shakes his head, pushing that thought to the back of his mind. His worries can wait until Jinx is back on her feet. ]
rebellions: (full glory of gonzo)

[personal profile] rebellions 2023-08-20 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ragna lets her do her thing ─ it's pretty obvious she needs a moment to get her bearings, and that's fine with him. It's a small blessing she doesn't ask any further questions about what he heard, too, but the way she looks at him now leaves him momentarily dumbfounded. The difference between this and what she was like just a moment ago is so stark, it almost feels like two entirely different people. Make it three compared to how she usually is, which only serves to confuse him even more than he already is. Before he can think too much about it, however, he's already on the move, following the girl and grabbing her arm to stop her. ]

Not so fast, princess.

[ Seems like all she's earned herself with that haughty attitude is a new nickname, because Ragna clearly has no intention of obeying her orders. ]

I'm all for going our separate ways and forgetting this ever happened, [ because he's not entirely happy with how he's handling this situation, either, ] but not before I know─

[ that you're okay, is right there at the tip of his tongue but he stops himself at the last second. What is he even doing, getting involved in someone else's crap? Even this whole "partnership" thing is nothing more than them agreeing to use each other for their respective goals until they find a way out of here. And once they do, none of what happens here will have mattered anyway─

Realizing he still hasn't finished the sentence, Ragna finally manages to spit out the next best thing that comes to mind. ]


... what the hell was all that about, anyway?!
rebellions: (aw shit here we go again)

[personal profile] rebellions 2023-08-22 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Instinctively, Ragna's grip tightens on her arm in response to her yelling, but just a second later he lets her go. She's right, after all ─ it's none of his business. He has no reason trying to pry into whatever's wrong with her (the fact something is wrong isn't really in question at this point), and it would be for the best if he simply turned around and walked away. In fact, he even takes a small step backwards, like that's what he's going to do.

But he can't.

Jinx's expression from before is still on his mind, and while it's entirely possible he's simply overthinking it, her sudden change of attitude feels like she's trying to overcompensate for that earlier slip-up. How many times ─ hundreds, thousands? ─ has he missed a cry for help disguised as cruelty, violence and sheer insanity? The answer is too many, and even if he's completely off the mark this time, he can't risk making the same mistake again.

Easier said than done, though. Having absolutely no clue what's gotten into the girl (or why she's screaming at the air, for that matter), it's hard for him to figure what to do next, and for a brief moment, he simply stands there in silence. ]


... There's no one here.

[ He repeats, though this time his voice is flat, like he's simply stating a fact rather than trying to sound reassuring. But for what it's worth, he's trying a different approach and not asking about what happened anymore, since that was obviously going nowhere. ]
rebellions: (sheesh...)

[personal profile] rebellions 2023-08-23 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That's a great question, and one Ragna himself doesn't exactly have a ready answer to. What does he want? It's not like she owes him an explanation and he's definitely not about to start demanding one. At the end of the day, he just wants to make sure she'll be okay from here on, but hell will freeze over before he admits as much. Ragna scratches the back of his head, figuring he might as well say something to break his incredibly awkward silence. ]

... Fuck if I know. Not, uh, this?

[ That's a very helpful hint, huh. His request sounds so silly now that he's said it out loud, even he can't help but wince a little. The man waves his hand dismissively, almost as if telling her to disregard that comment as he starts over. ]

If you want someone to pretend something never happened, it'd help if you didn't do a complete 180 on them, y'know? This shit makes it kinda hard to ignore.

[ Sure, a part of him is aware that if he were in her shoes, he would absolutely storm off in a huff with zero explanation himself, so it might be hypocritical of him to say it... But he's always been better at preaching the right things instead of doing them, and it looks like it's not changing anytime soon. ]

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[personal profile] conflictresolution 2023-08-27 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[Continued from here because frozen comments.]

Mmmm, indeed, and it's important to forge relationships that could be beneficial to the cause, even if it has changed for this place. Best to explore every nook and cranny.

[He was well aware that she had met someone, and that she was protecting this someone's identity. Or perhaps she didn't know and this someone had been met on the night in the casino where she had been very, very inebriated. Her reaction still lead him to believe she knew.

He kept walking as if he hadn't noticed her lagging or fussing with her hickey. He instead lifted a hand to push aside low hanging foliage then paused when she wasn't behind him to sneak under it same as him.]


Seducing future followers isn't generally your style, Jinx. Are you exploring a new avenue of approach?
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[personal profile] conflictresolution 2023-08-28 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
[It was a rare situation where he could actually take advantage of Jinx doing something innocently silly. Those days had long passed since she had first come to his care, though some of her awkwardness persisted into her teenage years. Her chaotic nature meant that she often put herself in interesting situations, but many of those he couldn't capitalize on as it was only by word of mouth or her own admission that he found out about it.

For once in a very long time, Jinx's reaction earned a low chuckle out of him. It didn't last long before he was following in her hurried wake. They had a few turns to make and then they would be back at the camp that Rumpitur had set up for them to stay in.]


If it is a random and they took advantage of you, I am not above removing fingers on your behalf.
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[personal profile] conflictresolution 2023-08-28 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Silco continued to walk until he came up in front of Jinx, and he enjoyed the dawning look of horror on her face. He offered a brief little smirk before he simply by-passed her to continue walking down the game trail.]

And because you do have shimmer, it seems to be mutual. Let us be mindful of bug bites in the future then.

[It wasn't the worst attraction, though he considered it inconvenient and convenient at the same time. If this went anywhere, the boy was going to be insufferable and Jinx tended to attach hard to people. Ugh, children growing up was never easy.]
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[personal profile] conflictresolution 2023-08-28 01:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[The Undercity was full of every delight and depravity that anyone could think of. It was a city of progress in its own right, and with no formal education, informal job opportunities and exploitation around every corner, it wasn't unusual for teenagers to get themselves into trouble in their exploration of the world. If parents existed, some where better with their lessons and protections than others.

Of course, the more that he thought of this potential little tryst, the more he expected it to be short-lived. Physical on the boy's part with enough emotional to get what he wanted, and for Jinx, she wanted it all. Loneliness provided particular cravings.]


You think you can have a truce that lasts? [Silco shifted his gaze to watch her out of the corner of his eye.] We've been here less than a month, and this sort of interaction is happening? It's a suspiciously short amount of time, given the state he left you in when I found you on the bridge.

[He was a naturally suspicious person of course. He also had been a teenage boy before, and he knew for a fact that they had two modes and one mode was usually seeking for the other. Why not? It was fun; it was exciting; it was an escape from the desperation even for a few moments.]

Guard your heart, Jinx. Keep whatever it is physical and be prepared to cut him off.
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cw: threat of violence

[personal profile] conflictresolution 2023-08-29 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[He had far more faith in Jinx's abilities than he did in the boy to upkeep a truce when the boy couldn't help but instigate something against him. A part of him was suspicious currently that the boy was using Jinx to get to him, and that wouldn't be unusual of a tactic either. In that regard, he had faith that Jinx would sniff out deceit as her paranoia made her question everything now and again. He knew she would sort it out if that were the case.

And if the boy was being truthful about the truce with Jinx, it certainly didn't apply to Silco. He had agreed to nothing, and he would destroy that boy if he decided that it was a necessary measure. After all, being close to Jinx did technically put the boy within his own reach, and never let it be said that he wouldn't utilize a resource if it came within his range.

He stopped and turned to allow his daughter opportunity to catch up after she had fallen behind again. He didn't move when she came up beside him but instead reached out to nudge her chin up lightly with a finger.]


Do what you feel you want to and must, just be careful. This might not be the Undercity, but everyone has conflicting motives. Be safe about it.

[And then he produced a razor smile, the kind that anyone who saw it knew that there was imminent danger on the horizon.]

And if this imaginary boy of yours hurts you, I will destroy everything he is.
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[personal profile] conflictresolution 2023-08-30 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
[With the return of her smile, he considered the matter to be put to rest for the moment, until he had gathered more information on the situation that was. He reserved the right to about-face should he deem it worthwhile, and he had no doubt that this was going to potentially be a topic that would come to his radar often.

He had thought he had her best interests at heart, especially given the world that they came from where harm was around every corner. She had been through a lot in the weeks leading up to his death as well, so perhaps he was a touch on the overt protective side. She had almost died after all; it was a fact that he couldn't shake and a reality he faced each time he looked into her purple gaze.

Shimmer had saved her life with the doctor's interventions. He would be damned if he would risk losing her again.

He gestured with his chin to continue on their path back to camp and where the diplomatic actions were to take place. He turned to walk, the path narrowing enough that they had to go single file as they cut between some large trees.]

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