[ His expression falls with obvious exasperation. ]
Dante...
[ Even recovering in a dark room from apparently overworking himself, his tone leans towards scolding them. But he can't say he doesn't understand the temptation. ]
Would you have at least told someone [ him ], if you had decided to try?
[Yeah, he's in lecture mode, a furrow in his brow. He doesn't think about the fact that it's brought on largely by the fact that he's upset by the thought of Dante coming to harm and not having any help.]
That's why you set up contingencies, if you're taking risks, and this place is unpredictable. If something happened to you and no one knew to look out for you, what then?
[ Altius lets out a slow breath, a little shakier than usual. With it goes his stern tone and the solidity of his frown, and a few moments later, he makes a soft request. ]
[ He lowers his gaze to the gloved hand he's holding. What others have they heard it from? Their Sinners? Their superiors? Does it come from the same place as his scolding now, or does it come from where his used to come from? ]
Have any of them told you it's because they care for you?
[Complicated. ... he supposes he can't judge that. As busy as they all are, who knows what opportunities they may have had or not had to express that kind of sentiment, if it's there. Would Dante feel as strongly about their duty if there wasn't some genuine sentiment among their team?
Regardless.]
Then let me be explicit about it.
[His hand curls a little tighter around theirs, and he raises his eyes again. There's a tired but serious look on his face.]
You mean a great deal to me. And I hate the thought of not being able to help you when you needed it simply because I wasn't aware.
[For the second time since they came to after losing their memory, Dante feels as if their clock hands have rusted to a stop. The feeling, similar in intensity, similar in overwhelming enormity, hangs on their shoulders and drags at their limbs in a heavy weight.
This time, though, it's... different. It clings, but doesn't choke or drown. It sinks deep, but doesn't seek to bury them alive.]
< ...I won't put myself in danger unless I have to. >
[Altius watches them for a long moment, expression softening. While it would be a lie to say he isn't comforted by the thought of them avoiding harm, especially for his sake... it would be unfair, wouldn't it? To try and wrap them in a bubble, to keep them from taking any risk because of nothing more than his feelings.
He decides to clarify, at least.]
I don't mean to ask you never to try anything, [he says, letting a breath out of his nose.] I just want to know you'll have what you need to be alright at the end of the day. But... thank you. For listening.
[And it's not as if they could ever promise him they'd never end up hurt. Some things are worth the risk, they believe that much, no matter what limitations they may or may not have.
They let their hand linger in his for a moment longer, allow themselves to wonder what it might feel like if the barrier of the gloves they wear wasn't there. Just for a moment, and then their hand returns to their side.]
< If it makes you feel any better, I do have something I can use out there if I need to. >
[ He considers not letting go for a split second, as Dante's hand slides out of his. But the moment passes and he sits back so he can look up at them more easily. ]
What's that? Does it have to do with your souvenir?
[They reach into their pocket and pull out a capped syringe filled with green liquid, the glass etched with a green, black, and white logo.]
< It's been awhile, but... You remember shortly after the whole doppelganger incident? I think I mentioned one of these things to you in a roundabout way. That I wasn't really used to needing to worry about recovery time. >
[He does recall, and he looks at the syringe, squinting slightly. Hm... not just technology after all, he can see. But supernatural concepts seem not uncommon in their city. Perhaps they're already aware?]
That is good to hear. [Reassuring, certainly. He trusts that they'll be able to use it when they need, for all their pain tolerance.] I got something of a souvenir myself, but I'd say it's less impressive than yours.
[Altius explains as he reaches into his inner jacket pocket for the engraved watch he'd recently found waiting for him. It felt like more of a mockery than a reward—but he's glad that Dante got something useful, after all that mood they'd been put in.]
Something I bought for my ward, Ferran.
[Holding it up for them to look at if they like, he pauses and realizes something. With an amused hum, he remarks:]
It matches you, too. [The colors of Dante's prosthesis are fairly close to the red and gold of Garnet's costume... which is what probably drew him to buy this watch in particular for the boy, with its red face with gold numbers and hands. The silver band matching Ferran's pendant made it all come together.]
[They know he likely means the colors as well as the watch, but there's still a moment where they stare at him before examining the watch a little closer.]
< It has to be a recreation, right? It'd be a little strange for it to just suddenly disappear from them and end up here. >
[It's only in that moment of staring that Altius realizes why comparing Dante to a timepiece might not have been the best idea, and he offers an apologetic sigh.]
Only the colors, I meant.
[Is it strange that he doesn't even think of their head as a clock anymore...? Or maybe he's just that tired.]
I wouldn't be surprised if it was drawn from my memory, but would it be any stranger than us disappearing and ending up here?
[Unlike most anyone else, he'll allow Dante to hold it if they like. If they don't take it, after a moment he'll turn the watch over to the inscription: a message of support he hadn't really met at the time, signed with the name Rion. Some of his exhaustion seems to come through as he reads it again. How things have changed...]
Perhaps it will return along with me, as others supposedly have been.
[They don't take the watch in hand, but they do elect to sit next to Altius, close enough that their arm nearly brushes up against his when they move it.]
[He's thought about it. He keeps thinking about it. The logical side of him knows there's no point, but the rest of him refuses to let it go. He hadn't meant for his plans with the young man to turn out that way, he'd thought to himself, but he realized that was a lie. How else was it supposed to end? He'd just decided the temporary pain he'd be causing was worth it, before. Why did his feelings change...?
Altius is silent for a few moments, and a clearly somber expression comes to his face, a troubled downturn to his lips.]
As much as I try to believe it's true that we'll make it back like so many have described, I still wonder if I'll get there in time.
[Lowering the watch in his hands until his arms rest on his legs and his elbow makes contact with their arm, he turns to look to Dante.]
The blood you saw on me when we met was his. The last thing I did before I arrived was hold him after he was shot. [He turns back to the watch, unable to keep looking at them, even if their presence is a comfort. There's a bitterness to his tone directed at himself as he continues.] Sitting here and trying to find ways to make simulated money while I still don't know if he's alright...
[They could tell him about their own experience. That when they returned for those brief few days, not even a minute had passed since they'd exited into the WARP station of District P. But would it help?
When time is of the essence, when someone's life might be on the line, when months have passed when moments count... Could something purely anecdotal be of any comfort?]
< Sometimes... keeping your mind and body busy is all you can really do. The time's going to pass by whether remain still or we keep moving, so I don't think there's anything wrong with making use of that time. >
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Dante...
[ Even recovering in a dark room from apparently overworking himself, his tone leans towards scolding them. But he can't say he doesn't understand the temptation. ]
Would you have at least told someone [ him ], if you had decided to try?
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< I wouldn't have done anything serious? It's just... you know. You have to figure out how these things work somehow. >
[They make a mental note to not tell him the sorts of things they've tried in the Mirror Dungeons.]
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That's why you set up contingencies, if you're taking risks, and this place is unpredictable. If something happened to you and no one knew to look out for you, what then?
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Still, they can't quite bring themselves to meet his gaze.]
< I was only thinking about it. I wasn't going to actually do it... >
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Come here for a moment, please?
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< Everything okay? >
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You know I'm not asking all of that because I'm trying to humiliate you or make you feel ashamed. Don't you?
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< ...I know. You're not the only one I've heard this kind of thing from. >
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Have any of them told you it's because they care for you?
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[Have they?
Don Quixote said something about a family of twelve that one time. But was she just counting herself in that or...?]
< We've been through a lot. That kind of thing gets complicated after awhile. >
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Regardless.]
Then let me be explicit about it.
[His hand curls a little tighter around theirs, and he raises his eyes again. There's a tired but serious look on his face.]
You mean a great deal to me. And I hate the thought of not being able to help you when you needed it simply because I wasn't aware.
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[For the second time since they came to after losing their memory, Dante feels as if their clock hands have rusted to a stop. The feeling, similar in intensity, similar in overwhelming enormity, hangs on their shoulders and drags at their limbs in a heavy weight.
This time, though, it's... different. It clings, but doesn't choke or drown. It sinks deep, but doesn't seek to bury them alive.]
< ...I won't put myself in danger unless I have to. >
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He decides to clarify, at least.]
I don't mean to ask you never to try anything, [he says, letting a breath out of his nose.] I just want to know you'll have what you need to be alright at the end of the day. But... thank you. For listening.
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[And it's not as if they could ever promise him they'd never end up hurt. Some things are worth the risk, they believe that much, no matter what limitations they may or may not have.
They let their hand linger in his for a moment longer, allow themselves to wonder what it might feel like if the barrier of the gloves they wear wasn't there. Just for a moment, and then their hand returns to their side.]
< If it makes you feel any better, I do have something I can use out there if I need to. >
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What's that? Does it have to do with your souvenir?
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[They reach into their pocket and pull out a capped syringe filled with green liquid, the glass etched with a green, black, and white logo.]
< It's been awhile, but... You remember shortly after the whole doppelganger incident? I think I mentioned one of these things to you in a roundabout way. That I wasn't really used to needing to worry about recovery time. >
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[He does recall, and he looks at the syringe, squinting slightly. Hm... not just technology after all, he can see. But supernatural concepts seem not uncommon in their city. Perhaps they're already aware?]
That is good to hear. [Reassuring, certainly. He trusts that they'll be able to use it when they need, for all their pain tolerance.] I got something of a souvenir myself, but I'd say it's less impressive than yours.
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< Really? What was it? >
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Something I bought for my ward, Ferran.
[Holding it up for them to look at if they like, he pauses and realizes something. With an amused hum, he remarks:]
It matches you, too. [The colors of Dante's prosthesis are fairly close to the red and gold of Garnet's costume... which is what probably drew him to buy this watch in particular for the boy, with its red face with gold numbers and hands. The silver band matching Ferran's pendant made it all come together.]
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< It has to be a recreation, right? It'd be a little strange for it to just suddenly disappear from them and end up here. >
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Only the colors, I meant.
[Is it strange that he doesn't even think of their head as a clock anymore...? Or maybe he's just that tired.]
I wouldn't be surprised if it was drawn from my memory, but would it be any stranger than us disappearing and ending up here?
[Unlike most anyone else, he'll allow Dante to hold it if they like. If they don't take it, after a moment he'll turn the watch over to the inscription: a message of support he hadn't really met at the time, signed with the name Rion. Some of his exhaustion seems to come through as he reads it again. How things have changed...]
Perhaps it will return along with me, as others supposedly have been.
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< At least he'll get it back either way. >
[More importantly...]
< I take it that's been something on your mind? >
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Altius is silent for a few moments, and a clearly somber expression comes to his face, a troubled downturn to his lips.]
As much as I try to believe it's true that we'll make it back like so many have described, I still wonder if I'll get there in time.
[Lowering the watch in his hands until his arms rest on his legs and his elbow makes contact with their arm, he turns to look to Dante.]
The blood you saw on me when we met was his. The last thing I did before I arrived was hold him after he was shot. [He turns back to the watch, unable to keep looking at them, even if their presence is a comfort. There's a bitterness to his tone directed at himself as he continues.] Sitting here and trying to find ways to make simulated money while I still don't know if he's alright...
[It feels wrong.]
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When time is of the essence, when someone's life might be on the line, when months have passed when moments count... Could something purely anecdotal be of any comfort?]
< Sometimes... keeping your mind and body busy is all you can really do. The time's going to pass by whether remain still or we keep moving, so I don't think there's anything wrong with making use of that time. >
< Besides, it's not like that's all you did. >
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