What's the big deal? It's just picking a colour, no?
[ clearly the wires have crossed somewhere in the discussion ... because vash doesn't seem at all bothered by the invasive theoretical question. it's not like they're talking about ~feelings~, right?
when rafal reaches out, vash will obediently pass on the cards to the other - even if he was pouting about it just a second ago. ]
I thought the point was just having a conversation ...
[ smh rafal.
vash would roll his eyes, but he's been brought up too well (supposedly), so he's going to refrain himself and sit patiently, twiddling his thumbs while the other rifles through the conversation cards. ]
Uh, technically isn't that my question to ask you?
Well, I think you're taking this way too seriously!
[ he sounds extremely chipper despite all the linefacing, but maybe it's also because he's trying to distract the other so he'd forget about the question by the time it's rafal's turn. he hates to be hated, but that's a better alternative than being made to answer questions ... like that. he'd rather talk about underwear colours, thank you very much!
but he supposes he should pick something less idiotic ... ]
Of course. What is the point of love if you do not take it seriously?
[ after all, nel took it seriously. it burned him then, to see her so in love with the divine dragon. to indulge the fantasy of loving another. or being loved in turn! fell dragons are not loved.
but then. well. his view has changed somewhat. ]
I have never been in love so I would say the loss. Any love I would have for another would not last their lifetime. I would carry it forever.
[ forgive him if vash sounds a little incredulous ... it's not the idea of rafal being here for that purpose, of course! but more surprised at himself for never actually thinking about it in the first place. he kind of feels bad now, like he's been an inconsiderate person ... ]
[ he frowns. fear of love? hardly. once, he'd been desperate for it. if only nil would love him like he loved nel. if only his father would see him as useful. if only there had been a person in the world who saw rafal and wanted him here.
foolish. he had been blind the whole time. ]
It would far more sad, I think, for some poor soul to love me. Knowing what I am and what I've done . . . that seems ready for tragedy.
[ vash isn't quite smiling - yeah, he's still got a goofy tilt to his head as though he can't ever afford to drop that ridiculous mask in front of others, but for once he seems a little more serious. ]
I meant you.
Letting yourself love others is ... important, I think.
[ the other way around? not so much. maybe he's being self centred, talking more about himself and his views over rafal's. ]
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[ clearly the wires have crossed somewhere in the discussion ... because vash doesn't seem at all bothered by the invasive theoretical question. it's not like they're talking about ~feelings~, right?
when rafal reaches out, vash will obediently pass on the cards to the other - even if he was pouting about it just a second ago. ]
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[ rafal carelessly flicks through the cards before one catches his eye. ah. well now. he lingers on it before smirking, taking his seat once more. ]
Let's do this one.
"Do you have a right to be happy or should you earn it?"
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[ smh rafal.
vash would roll his eyes, but he's been brought up too well (supposedly), so he's going to refrain himself and sit patiently, twiddling his thumbs while the other rifles through the conversation cards. ]
Uh, technically isn't that my question to ask you?
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[ he slides the card over to vash negligently. ]
Then go ahead. Just know I'll be asking it soon after.
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[ he sounds extremely chipper despite all the linefacing, but maybe it's also because he's trying to distract the other so he'd forget about the question by the time it's rafal's turn. he hates to be hated, but that's a better alternative than being made to answer questions ... like that. he'd rather talk about underwear colours, thank you very much!
but he supposes he should pick something less idiotic ... ]
What’s the hardest thing about being in love?
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Of course. What is the point of love if you do not take it seriously?
[ after all, nel took it seriously. it burned him then, to see her so in love with the divine dragon. to indulge the fantasy of loving another. or being loved in turn! fell dragons are not loved.
but then. well. his view has changed somewhat. ]
I have never been in love so I would say the loss. Any love I would have for another would not last their lifetime. I would carry it forever.
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[ forgive him if vash sounds a little incredulous ... it's not the idea of rafal being here for that purpose, of course! but more surprised at himself for never actually thinking about it in the first place. he kind of feels bad now, like he's been an inconsiderate person ... ]
You've never been in love? Really?
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[ he says this off-handedly, waving it off. ]
Fell Dragons do not love. They exist to be feared.
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[ hmm, maybe he shouldn't have asked it in that way, in case rafal takes that as an offensive challenge ... ]
Well, I like you! I think you shouldn't stop yourself from it, if you really want to!
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It's not like I've been trying. What would be the point of that?
And wouldn't it be pointless to fall in love here only to separate later?
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[ to rafal, he means. ]
Isn't it ... well, a little sad? To not let yourself because you're scared?
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foolish. he had been blind the whole time. ]
It would far more sad, I think, for some poor soul to love me. Knowing what I am and what I've done . . . that seems ready for tragedy.
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I meant you.
Letting yourself love others is ... important, I think.
[ the other way around? not so much. maybe he's being self centred, talking more about himself and his views over rafal's. ]
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I love Nel. Loving anyone else . . . feels egregious.
My love has never done anyone any favors.
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[ it's meant to be a bit teasing, a little bit joking, to try and lighten the mood. ]
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[ a dry chuckle. ]
Let's move on.
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[ everyone seems to be having fun, vash doesn't want to be the homewrecker?? ]
Alright, your turn now!!
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"Do you have a right to be happy or should you earn it?"
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Well ... I think that really depends.
[ what a non-answer!!! ]
Everyone deserves to be happy ... I think. As a whole.
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And yet you've avoided saying "I deserve to be happy" completely.
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[ still not answering it! ]
I did say everyone!
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[ he feels this matters. stubborn to the end. ]
I want to hear you say it.
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Be careful with the next person you get, otherwise you might make them cry!
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