[She looks rough, but then again, most people coming in and out of the inn these past couple days do. Junpei's sure he doesn't look like he's in top form himself, just tired around the edges.
Either way, he gestures for her to come up the stairs, insistently.]
Yeah, of course it is. I'll steal you something to eat if you don't want to go all the way inside.
[At least sit up here with him! And technically it won't be stealing either, they're giving food away, but it's the thought that counts.]
Nah, people have been coming in and out from fighting for like, two days? Probably longer, but I wasn't here when the power went out.
[Even Charles keeps going out there to swing a bat in people's defense, which might be part of the reason Junpei has been loitering on the steps. It's fine, he's on a new quest to get Fauna some food, please continue following.]
[Junpei looks at her with open concern, but he figures, well, he more or less got through to her last time... he thinks. So it should be fine this time.
Give him a second to grab a bowl of some mystery stew from where a row of bowls are being set out for the taking, holding it out for her to take as he gestures again so they can go sit in a corner or something.]
I'm getting you food right now, so... disagree. C'mon, sit down.
[He looks at her for an extra beat, and then he notices her eyes, and then it's like a switch flips in his brain and, oh. Where is the other Fauna, he wonders... hoo boy.]
[eat the stew, shadow girl this is a test-- no, it's not.]
Wow, uh, I don't know what to say to that.
[His kneejerk response is honestly to be a little offended? He's not a therapist, that just sounds uncharitable to him, but give him a second-- he shakes his head.]
Dunno about who else you talk to, but I'm persistent. Like a bad penny.
Well, I'm still sitting here, so don't worry about it unless something actually happens. Trust me, you're not gonna get anything out of getting stuck on the 'oh no, what if they do this and that and this' bullshit.
I don't want to have to be the one who has to do it, either. But no one else will. Everyone else lies. Everyone else says they want justice, but lie and cheat and would hurt others just to benefit themselves.
[He looks at her for a moment in silence, frowning, then he sighs.]
Look, I get it— I know people are pretty shitty. Trust me, I know. But I don't know how to convince you that you're allowed to live your own life without being miserable all the time.
Ever since I was born as a boy, that was never allowed to me. My life became other people's gossip, other people's mistakes to fix. I wasn't allowed to live as myself until I started hurting people.
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Junpei was nice... even if he was mad at her before. Her ears droop as she approaches... Like she thinks she's going to be rejected.]
Is that really okay?
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Either way, he gestures for her to come up the stairs, insistently.]
Yeah, of course it is. I'll steal you something to eat if you don't want to go all the way inside.
[At least sit up here with him! And technically it won't be stealing either, they're giving food away, but it's the thought that counts.]
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[She follows him obediently. Meekly, even.]
But I have to.
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[Give him a few minutes, he'll get it. He stops at the door to wait for her before pushing it open, then.]
You don't have to do anything, anyway. Just by the way.
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[The vibe is different from her normal fighty self... "Lost puppy" seems most accurate as she follows.]
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[Even Charles keeps going out there to swing a bat in people's defense, which might be part of the reason Junpei has been loitering on the steps. It's fine, he's on a new quest to get Fauna some food, please continue following.]
Hey, uh, are you... okay?
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... No. I'm not. I've never been okay, but no one cares. I have to do everything myself. I don't have anyone. I'm all alone...
[She stares up at Junpei with eyes that are just too yellow.]
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Give him a second to grab a bowl of some mystery stew from where a row of bowls are being set out for the taking, holding it out for her to take as he gestures again so they can go sit in a corner or something.]
I'm getting you food right now, so... disagree. C'mon, sit down.
[He looks at her for an extra beat, and then he notices her eyes, and then it's like a switch flips in his brain and, oh. Where is the other Fauna, he wonders... hoo boy.]
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can shadows eat? good question!]... You're nice. But even you'll abandon me eventually...
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Wow, uh, I don't know what to say to that.
[His kneejerk response is honestly to be a little offended? He's not a therapist, that just sounds uncharitable to him, but give him a second-- he shakes his head.]
Dunno about who else you talk to, but I'm persistent. Like a bad penny.
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... Even my own parents did. Everyone will abandon me eventually.
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Well, I'm still sitting here, so don't worry about it unless something actually happens. Trust me, you're not gonna get anything out of getting stuck on the 'oh no, what if they do this and that and this' bullshit.
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... Don't you think I deserve it, though? After all, I tried to destroy the world.
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[He shrugs and gestures vaguely around them, like, see? They are still sitting here.]
Besides, I fucked off from helping anybody with anything during that reset bullshit, and nobody's mad at me about it.
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Because I hate the world. I want to destroy it. I tried to. Because you can't make a better world while the current world still exists.
[who cares about aldrip.]
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[Don't say who cares, do not say who cares, she clearly cares--]
Well, I don't think that's... uh, true? I mean, literally? You don't fix anything by wiping it out first.
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[SHE CARES A LOT, JUMPY]
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["Source: dude trust me" energy all over that one, he thinks. But even if it's true somehow—]
Anyway, it doesn't matter. Shit happens.
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[He shrugs; it definitely takes a while to get here, where it sounds like self-preservation instead of apathy.]
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I won't accept that. Someone has to. The world has to change. I won't accept the world as it is.
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I don't want to have to be the one who has to do it, either. But no one else will. Everyone else lies. Everyone else says they want justice, but lie and cheat and would hurt others just to benefit themselves.
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Look, I get it— I know people are pretty shitty. Trust me, I know. But I don't know how to convince you that you're allowed to live your own life without being miserable all the time.
cw: referenced transphobia
[She stares into her stew bowl....]
Ever since I was born as a boy, that was never allowed to me. My life became other people's gossip, other people's mistakes to fix. I wasn't allowed to live as myself until I started hurting people.
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