[A single answer can bring forth so many new questions, but there is no longer any doubt in his mind that the place Atsushi comes from is absolutely different from the one he knows of.
A dark chuckle comes out of him, too effective in this supposed charade.]
Are you scared of what happened afterwards?
[He knows the rules of the Port Mafia. Of how they were all trained. To keep them on their toes, to help them survive the darkness of Yokohama. He doesn't want to be too harsh on Atsushi, not when he knows what best to do to encourage him.
At least he has an excuse for his next order.]
Keep an eye out for this Akutagawa. Capture him by any means necessary, but do not kill him. I have many questions for him.
[Haah. The other him surely did a number of Atsushi-kun, huh? Then again, he was also the same back in the day. There's even a pang of nostalgia that comes from that reaction - one that he is unused to feeling when it comes to matters with his favorite student.
Perhaps he is leaning too hard into this act. But even now he doesn't know how exactly he could save Atsushi-kun. Things like these are actually hard for Dazai.
He remembers the headpat he gave Akutagawa-kun one time, and he practically fainted as a result. Should he do the same..? No, maybe not on the head. That might still be too much to process.
He decides to place a calming hand on his shoulder instead, and Dazai hopes his smile isn't too sharp. That it is the ray of encouragement he intends to give instead.]
Have some faith in yourself. I know you can do it.
[ Atsushi stiffens from the hand that is placed on his shoulder. His first instinct tells him to shrink away, afraid he had done something wrong again. His body can't help but react that way to human contact.
But he steels himself, unwilling to offend his superior, which was more of a death sentence to him.
So when Dazai merely holds that hand in place and encourages Atsushi, it leaves the Weretiger boy deeply confused, like a scared animal. Even if this was Dazai-san, his boss whom he yearns for praise from— like many adults he knew, his superior would never acknowledge him in this gentle manner.
He was just a monstrous man-eating tiger after all, unworthy of being a human being.
Trembling slightly, Atsushi pulls the other's hand away and shook his head. ]
"... Dazai-san. You shouldn't dirty your hand like this. I am no more than a beast for the Port Mafia to use."
[Then he shall tune his words to the right sharpness - a dangerous lilt to his voice, a sinister beat of amusement. As if Atsushi has done something wrong, a kind of teasing engrained with teeth.
(He would like to mean it as a joke, really, but neither of them are properly prepared for such a mundane thing.)
If he has to manipulate Atsushi into accepting kindness once more, then so be it.]
Are you telling the Boss of the Port Mafia what to do, now?
[ The Weretiger immediately releases Dazai's wrist, shaking his head again. He lowers his gaze to the ground, his body still visibly shaking from fear.
White Reaper or not, under his guise of a beast was just a timid, weak stray, unsure if he was allowed to take even a morsel of food in front of him.
Too afraid that if he would think of himself as a better person, he would be dragged down to hell in his nightmares and see that man he murdered with his own claws.
Shit, he needed to keep himself together in front of Dazai. ]
"I apologize for offending you. Praise from you is just... unusual, sir."
[Indeed, this Atsushi is but a stray - even moreso than the young tiger he has met by the riverbank. At least that Atsushi wasn't scared of kindness or gratitude. But fear is but a hindrance in the Port Mafia: one must perform all of their duties regardless of their personal feelings. Such is their oath, and their methodology. Atsushi should learn to be able to move in spite of that fear.]
I only say what I mean. If I am praising you, then you would have deserved it.
[So Atsushi will be fine - or he will drown in his own nightmares.
Dazai begins walking forward, with a presence that demands he be followed. He looks back only once, a coy smile upon his face.]
Follow me, Atsushi-kun. We should grab something to eat.
[ It was always a challenge to discern from reading Dazai's expression, but for a fleeting moment, the stray boy felt as he glimpsed at an entirely different person. It was unsettling, but he could be imagining it.
He stood there awkwardly as he observed Dazai's back, before he realized Dazai was walking ahead of him and almost stumbling, he catches up keep the pace. ]
Do you know where to go from here, Dazai-san? Come to think of it... Where are we?
[And that laughter is so strangely genuine Dazai is sure the him who became the Boss would never have been able to make that sound, but he can't help it - this situation has because frankly so absurd that he can't even begin to figure out how they ended up in here!]
All we're sure is that someone is skilled enough to take us unawares, place us in this situation, and somehow contain us all within this large city. Isn't that enough to make you wanna explore, Atsushi-kun?
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A dark chuckle comes out of him, too effective in this supposed charade.]
Are you scared of what happened afterwards?
[He knows the rules of the Port Mafia. Of how they were all trained. To keep them on their toes, to help them survive the darkness of Yokohama. He doesn't want to be too harsh on Atsushi, not when he knows what best to do to encourage him.
At least he has an excuse for his next order.]
Keep an eye out for this Akutagawa. Capture him by any means necessary, but do not kill him. I have many questions for him.
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[ The answer to that question for him is obvious. The Port Mafia has no room for those who cannot follow orders.
Although he is worried about leaving Akutagawa alive, he must never disobey Dazai's orders. Otherwise... ]
"I will capture Akutagawa when I see him. Mark my words."
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Perhaps he is leaning too hard into this act. But even now he doesn't know how exactly he could save Atsushi-kun. Things like these are actually hard for Dazai.
He remembers the headpat he gave Akutagawa-kun one time, and he practically fainted as a result. Should he do the same..? No, maybe not on the head. That might still be too much to process.
He decides to place a calming hand on his shoulder instead, and Dazai hopes his smile isn't too sharp. That it is the ray of encouragement he intends to give instead.]
Have some faith in yourself. I know you can do it.
🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍
But he steels himself, unwilling to offend his superior, which was more of a death sentence to him.
So when Dazai merely holds that hand in place and encourages Atsushi, it leaves the Weretiger boy deeply confused, like a scared animal. Even if this was Dazai-san, his boss whom he yearns for praise from— like many adults he knew, his superior would never acknowledge him in this gentle manner.
He was just a monstrous man-eating tiger after all, unworthy of being a human being.Trembling slightly, Atsushi pulls the other's hand away and shook his head. ]
"... Dazai-san. You shouldn't dirty your hand like this. I am no more than a beast for the Port Mafia to use."
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Oh?
[Then he shall tune his words to the right sharpness - a dangerous lilt to his voice, a sinister beat of amusement. As if Atsushi has done something wrong, a kind of teasing engrained with teeth.
(He would like to mean it as a joke, really, but neither of them are properly prepared for such a mundane thing.)
If he has to manipulate Atsushi into accepting kindness once more, then so be it.]
Are you telling the Boss of the Port Mafia what to do, now?
🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍 (tw: implied murder)
[ The Weretiger immediately releases Dazai's wrist, shaking his head again. He lowers his gaze to the ground, his body still visibly shaking from fear.
White Reaper or not, under his guise of a beast was just a timid, weak stray, unsure if he was allowed to take even a morsel of food in front of him.
Too afraid that if he would think of himself as a better person, he would be dragged down to hell in his nightmares and see that man he murdered with his own claws.
Shit, he needed to keep himself together in front of Dazai. ]
"I apologize for offending you. Praise from you is just... unusual, sir."
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I only say what I mean. If I am praising you, then you would have deserved it.
[So Atsushi will be fine - or he will drown in his own nightmares.
Dazai begins walking forward, with a presence that demands he be followed. He looks back only once, a coy smile upon his face.]
Follow me, Atsushi-kun. We should grab something to eat.
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He stood there awkwardly as he observed Dazai's back, before he realized Dazai was walking ahead of him and almost stumbling, he catches up keep the pace. ]
Do you know where to go from here, Dazai-san? Come to think of it... Where are we?
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[And that laughter is so strangely genuine Dazai is sure the him who became the Boss would never have been able to make that sound, but he can't help it - this situation has because frankly so absurd that he can't even begin to figure out how they ended up in here!]
All we're sure is that someone is skilled enough to take us unawares, place us in this situation, and somehow contain us all within this large city. Isn't that enough to make you wanna explore, Atsushi-kun?