[Why, indeed? It's not like Dazai owes Nikolai anything, especially when he is part of the group that has caused the Agency's current fall from grace. In the end, the reason is stupidly sentimental: Because Dazai knows how it feels to lose something you can never recover from.

Dazai closes his eyes, strangely serious for once.]

Who knows? Maybe it's because we both have something that we lack, that we can't help but to search for it to the point of madness.

[Perhaps he has learned to be kind after all, to let Nikolai feel what he feels.]

I simply think that there are other ways. There will always be other reasons one can live for.

[It can be something. Anything. No matter what it is, it definitely exists.]