Richard had assumed that this youth's hands were stained in blood when he had proposed the question. After all, only so few were lucky to avoid the death and destruction during the infection. To Richard, who had built a mountain of bodies, it hadn't felt to bad. He could understand it and deal with it with minimal effort. His conscience wasn't burdened by the blood he spilled. But.. he can understand that it's not for all. There were people who hadn't been raised in war like he was.
He stays quiet, allowing Scott to have his moment, choosing his words carefully.]
I remember my first kill. I was younger than what you are now, barely a man. ["Your mother left you behind.>"] I had been captured by the enemy army but managed to escape my captivity. The only thought running through my head was the thought of returning back to my home and to my father. I was so terribly scared and needed a disguise. There was a foot soldier and I acted on instinct. [The panic had shot through his small body once he had realized what he had done. Those dead eyes looking at him never quite left his memory. Richard remembers the fear bringing tears to his eyes.] In situations like those you do everything that you have to just to survive.
But those moments stay with you forever. But it's important not to let them rule over you. Carry them and respect them, but do not let them destroy you and pull you into the darkness.
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Richard had assumed that this youth's hands were stained in blood when he had proposed the question. After all, only so few were lucky to avoid the death and destruction during the infection. To Richard, who had built a mountain of bodies, it hadn't felt to bad. He could understand it and deal with it with minimal effort. His conscience wasn't burdened by the blood he spilled. But.. he can understand that it's not for all. There were people who hadn't been raised in war like he was.
He stays quiet, allowing Scott to have his moment, choosing his words carefully.]
I remember my first kill. I was younger than what you are now, barely a man. ["Your mother left you behind.>"] I had been captured by the enemy army but managed to escape my captivity. The only thought running through my head was the thought of returning back to my home and to my father. I was so terribly scared and needed a disguise. There was a foot soldier and I acted on instinct. [The panic had shot through his small body once he had realized what he had done. Those dead eyes looking at him never quite left his memory. Richard remembers the fear bringing tears to his eyes.] In situations like those you do everything that you have to just to survive.
But those moments stay with you forever. But it's important not to let them rule over you. Carry them and respect them, but do not let them destroy you and pull you into the darkness.