[ Ange doesn't go out too much anymore. She knows better, given the rising tensions with what's going on in the city. Yet she can't fully sit still either - feeling like maybe there's some way to put a stop to this situation if she could just find it. Maybe it's alright as long as she avoids places with people. Less chance of a Gnosia getting to her then, right?
(Usually she wouldn't care so much, but-- every single time she puts herself into the slightest danger she can see Claude's disappointed face flashing in her mind, and she kind of hates it. At least being somewhat careful it is.)
So when Ange spots Yosuke, she knows she should just ignore him. He could easily be one of those things.
But--
He seems strange. Not Gnosia strange. Just.. strange in general. He isn't even looking her way, likely hasn't even noticed her yet. He's wandering the streets like he's some sort of zombie, and despite the fact that Yosuke is not exactly her best friend or anything, it still worries the girl.
[he hadn't even really noticed her, for once. normally he might've said something about seeing a cutie on his walk or something, but he doesn't. instead, he jumps out of his skin when Ange calls out to him.
and then he tries to laugh it off when he faces her, hand going to the back of his head... but he just seems nervous.]
Hey, Ange-san... you aren't planning on attacking me, are you?
[ Her initial instinct is to tell him that if she was, he'd already be dead.
Somehow it feels a little tasteless right now though. Even to her - so that's saying something. Rather than letting those words escape, Ange just swallows them back up before they can, shaking her head a litte bit. ]
No.
[ She's telling the truth, sure, but she also knows it's hard to trust anyone right now. She wouldn't blame him if he didn't trust her, honestly. ]
But if you're worried about getting killed, then.. are you sure you should be walking around by yourself like this? [ Especially if he's spacing out. It just makes him an easy target. ]
[ That answer is actually not very surprising. She'd say there's something very Yosuke-like about the idea of being so unable to stay cooped up that he'd go out, even under these circumstances. Even though - at this point - most people know better than to go out too much. And the less targets out here, the more likely that you will be the victim if you're the only one out. ]
Who knows? Maybe I'm Gnosia. Then I would be safe out here, right?
[ She's not.
But Ange is kind of curious what his reaction would be here. Hey-- Maybe it'd scare him off enough to get him to go back home and stay safe. It'd be just fine with her if things worked out that way. ]
It's weird, isn't it? The way he's talking. The way he's reacting. If it wasn't for the fact that he hasn't made a single move on her yet despite the two of them being the only two out here, Ange would have instantly believes that Yosuke was infected right now.
But if it isn't that - and this isn't some weird, weird long con - then what it is? ]
.. What's wrong?
[ Something of the usual harsh edge to her tone fades when she says this. Not even purposefully. It's just that she's kind of worried, even if she wouldn't admit to it, and that sneaks into her tone way more than any of her usual sarcasm or dryness. ]
I know it sounds ironic in this dumb situation, but you don't seem like yourself right now. [ Not at all. And sure, not even Yosuke would probably scream about cute girls in the middle of an actually lethal situation, but--
but yeah, at least Ange has hit the nail on the head. and if it weren't for her opening up (hell yeah social linking!), he might have just walked away. and it's the tone in her voice too, that makes him think she might actually care.
even if they did go back and forth, sometimes.]
I'm just tired.
[there's a long silence, and he takes a deep breath.]
I was... a Gnosia. And I killed someone. I can't quite get over that, yet.
[ That certainly explains things. It even gives Ange some confirmation here with the usage of the past tense, making it clear that apparently it is very much possible after all for certain people to cure others of the whole Gnosia deal.
Even if it seems like it came just a little bit too late for Yosuke. ]
.. You know that wasn't your fault though.
[ Her tone dips a little bit as she says that. Something about the words sounds more genuine, like she's not just saying it since she feels like it's objective fact, but like maybe she's saying it a little bit for his sake too. Like she's trying to reassure him, even though she knows it's not that easy to convince your brain of something in the face of events of this magnitude. ]
It seems like this place just decided to be an asshole to us all over again and make us kill each other against our will. You couldn't help that. None of us can.
[he flexes his fingers. even if he wasn't friends at all with Akechi, it still kind of sucked. he hadn't wanted to kill him, hadn't really wanted to kill anyone... not since home.
not even Mikey, after he killed Yu.]
I just feel like there's still some way I could've stopped it. I even tried to hurt my best friend, when I was like that.
You could talk to them. [ She says - a little slowly, like she's trying to go about this more delicately than her usual snappy quick replies. ] When all of this is over, I mean.
[ If it does end up being over at some point. If the people who died actually come back. Experience in this place has taught her that both of those things will happen, but-- well, Ange doesn't necessarily want to trust that to be the case.
But she doesn't want to voice that paranoid, negative angle when Yosuke is clearly already having a hard time. The possibility that everyone will come back and Yosuke will be able to talk it over exists - so it's not a lie to present it to him. ]
It probably won't be easy, but.. [ There's a slight pause.
It almost looks like she's thinking of something, the look in the girl's eyes a little far-off. ] It's better than never talking about it at all. It feels worse until you've talked about it.
[ Another thing she has learned from experience, even if she doesn't voice that background information. ]
[there's a long silence as Yosuke considers her words. she's not incorrect, he knows. but there's still a bit of discomfort in thinking about talking to Yu and Mikey about it all. Yu would be easier, even if he was more embarrassed about the whole thing with him than anything.
Mikey, however...]
I'm not really good at saying sorry. Especially when both parties know I'm a hypocrite.
[Yu might not call him out completely... but it's highly possible Mikey would.]
[ Ange frowns a little bit. Not necessarily in anger, but in a slight bit of confusion as she tries to parse those words. ]
Hypocrite?
[ That's the part that gets to her. Yosuke not being good at saying sorry - sure, she can see that, considering everything she has seen him say and do over time. Besides, there's lots of people who aren't very good at it, and this entire situation being so big makes it even more awkward.
But the other part.. ]
Why would that make you a hypocrite? Do you not want to apologize to them? [ Is that why? Ange can't wrap her head around it just yet, even though she really is trying. ]
[but he fidgets with the headphones around his neck now, not putting them on but sort of rotating them to do something with his hands.]
But one of my friends hurt the other, and I didn't forgive him for doing it. And now I almost did the same thing, and... isn't it not fair that I want to be forgiven?
[he's not really looking at Ange now, moreso looking at the ground than anything else.]
[ That does sound like a complicated situation. And it does sound like the sort of thing that could turn you into a hypocrite, though it also depends on the details of the matter. Details that Ange doesn't have right now. ]
.. hey, come on. [ She can't help but say after a moment. ] I think you should talk a little more about this. But not out here.
[ She can't help but glance around them, like she's worried about some Gnosia approaching them even now. ]
I know you just have to trust I'm not planning on killing you, but we could at least sit at my place to talk about this and have a little less risk of getting murdered while talking about something important.
[he shrugs. it's not like he really care at the moment if Ange was gonna take him out in that sort of way, but... the last time he followed a cute girl this week he ended up killing someone.
details.
he runs his hand through his hair next, making himself not think about it.]
[ Usually she'd scold him, telling him to not look so awkward and reluctant about it.
But it's not like Ange is an idiot. She figures there's got to be some sort of reason for it - and given what's going on, it more than likely has something to do with this entire Gnosia business in the first place.
So it feels better to not address it. It'll just hurt Yosuke, she's sure. So Ange wordlessly starts leading him down the streets - keeping a careful eye out along the way - until she arrives at her house. It seems that her housemates aren't here right now, which is kind of worrying, but.. well, maybe it'll at least give them some privacy.
Leading him over to the living room, she gestures at the couch for Yosuke to sit down. ]
Do you want some tea?
[ Hey, who says even a blunt weird girl like Ange can't be a proper host when having guests over.. ]
[maybe the "tough love" would've put some normalcy back into this whole situation, who knows? but he follows her anyway, and sits when she tells him to, rubbing the back of his head.]
Uhh... I don't know if I'm a tea person. I'll just take some water or something.
[ Ange shrugs a little, seeming to think that's also fine. She does take a little bit longer than it'd take for someone to just get water - but considering she returns with a glass of water and a cup of tea, it seems that she instead took the time to get herself some tea.
When she sits down and takes in a breath, Ange's mind slowly moves back to the thing Yosuke mentioned before she dragged him here. The thing she didn't want to calmly discuss out on the streets while everything is so chaotic and dangerous. ]
Can you tell me about the time one of your friends hurt the other?
[ A slight pause, and then she adds: ]
You don't have to use names, if that makes it easier.
[there's a long silence, and he looks at her. it's possible if she knew Yu and Mikey well, there would be a chance she'd figure it out. she's smart, after all.
but he doesn't really care, honestly. he probably needs someone's opinion that wasn't involved in their mess.]
In the tower a few months ago... my friend hurt my best friend. He killed him, actually.
[he takes a sip of water.]
He wasn't himself then. Said he was possessed or something, but I still didn't forgive him. I couldn't. But then, with all this stuff going on... I tried to hurt my best friend. That other friend stopped me before I could. And now... I feel all sorts of shitty about it.
[ It's hard to tell whether or not the girl knows the exact situation he's talking about. It doesn't seem to show up on her face as she listens to him either way - so either she doesn't realize who this is about, or she's just not showing it. ]
You don't believe that not being in control of yourself is an excuse for the things you do?
[ Her question is asked with a pretty neutral tone. The judgement that might come with that sort of question when coming from most people doesn't seem to be there - mostly since there's no real emotion in the way she asks it at all, sipping her tea. ]
[there's a long silence, and Yosuke takes another sip of his drink.]
I feel like I shouldn't, since I was so quick to judge that other person when he lost control. But now, having gone through it myself... it's different.
[he pretty much completely understands Mikey now. he's just not sure what to do with the info at all.]
Then closes it again. Mostly because what she was about to say sounded kind of mean, even if Ange didn't intend for it to come across that way. Usually she just says it all the same, but this time she finds herself holding back, like she wants to be a little more delicate about this situation. Both with what Yosuke has told her recently in mind, and also because this seems like a pretty sensitive situation.
So Ange tries again - a little more carefully, this time. ]
You know you're allowed to change your mind, right..? Maybe it was just hard for you to imagine what it would be like in that person's shoes back when you got so mad at him. But now you know. It's something you could talk with him about, if you'd want to.
[ And, you know, when they're not in the middle of dying and all. ]
I don't think this place truly cares about what we think about forgiveness. [ The girl huffs.
Sure, this place's entire theming has been centered around that. Even way back when she first showed up here. But with everything that's happened so far and with how cynical Ange is, it feels easy to just assume this much. ]
Besides, if they'd really do all that to you and your friends just to teach you a lesson about that, then that's literally crazy. Who'd do something like that?
after day 3!
(Usually she wouldn't care so much, but-- every single time she puts herself into the slightest danger she can see Claude's disappointed face flashing in her mind, and she kind of hates it. At least being somewhat careful it is.)
So when Ange spots Yosuke, she knows she should just ignore him. He could easily be one of those things.
But--
He seems strange. Not Gnosia strange. Just.. strange in general. He isn't even looking her way, likely hasn't even noticed her yet. He's wandering the streets like he's some sort of zombie, and despite the fact that Yosuke is not exactly her best friend or anything, it still worries the girl.
At least enough to speak up. ]
Hanamura-san?
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and then he tries to laugh it off when he faces her, hand going to the back of his head... but he just seems nervous.]
Hey, Ange-san... you aren't planning on attacking me, are you?
[he's just. going to make sure here.]
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Somehow it feels a little tasteless right now though. Even to her - so that's saying something. Rather than letting those words escape, Ange just swallows them back up before they can, shaking her head a litte bit. ]
No.
[ She's telling the truth, sure, but she also knows it's hard to trust anyone right now. She wouldn't blame him if he didn't trust her, honestly. ]
But if you're worried about getting killed, then.. are you sure you should be walking around by yourself like this? [ Especially if he's spacing out. It just makes him an easy target. ]
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he crosses his arms, and shrugs.]
I just can't stay cooped up, either.
[maybe something will take him out though -- it might make him feel better for taking another life.]
So then why are you out? You shouldn't be, either.
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Who knows? Maybe I'm Gnosia. Then I would be safe out here, right?
[ She's not.
But Ange is kind of curious what his reaction would be here. Hey-- Maybe it'd scare him off enough to get him to go back home and stay safe. It'd be just fine with her if things worked out that way. ]
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he blinks at her, and then shrugs.]
Maybe, maybe not. Maybe they'll even kill each other at this point.
[I was a Gnosia.]
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It's weird, isn't it? The way he's talking. The way he's reacting. If it wasn't for the fact that he hasn't made a single move on her yet despite the two of them being the only two out here, Ange would have instantly believes that Yosuke was infected right now.
But if it isn't that - and this isn't some weird, weird long con - then what it is? ]
.. What's wrong?
[ Something of the usual harsh edge to her tone fades when she says this. Not even purposefully. It's just that she's kind of worried, even if she wouldn't admit to it, and that sneaks into her tone way more than any of her usual sarcasm or dryness. ]
I know it sounds ironic in this dumb situation, but you don't seem like yourself right now. [ Not at all. And sure, not even Yosuke would probably scream about cute girls in the middle of an actually lethal situation, but--
This is strange even beyond the lack of that. ]
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but yeah, at least Ange has hit the nail on the head. and if it weren't for her opening up (hell yeah social linking!), he might have just walked away. and it's the tone in her voice too, that makes him think she might actually care.
even if they did go back and forth, sometimes.]
I'm just tired.
[there's a long silence, and he takes a deep breath.]
I was... a Gnosia. And I killed someone. I can't quite get over that, yet.
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Even if it seems like it came just a little bit too late for Yosuke. ]
.. You know that wasn't your fault though.
[ Her tone dips a little bit as she says that. Something about the words sounds more genuine, like she's not just saying it since she feels like it's objective fact, but like maybe she's saying it a little bit for his sake too. Like she's trying to reassure him, even though she knows it's not that easy to convince your brain of something in the face of events of this magnitude. ]
It seems like this place just decided to be an asshole to us all over again and make us kill each other against our will. You couldn't help that. None of us can.
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[he flexes his fingers. even if he wasn't friends at all with Akechi, it still kind of sucked. he hadn't wanted to kill him, hadn't really wanted to kill anyone... not since home.
not even Mikey, after he killed Yu.]
I just feel like there's still some way I could've stopped it. I even tried to hurt my best friend, when I was like that.
[something he thought he knew he'd never do.]
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[ If it does end up being over at some point. If the people who died actually come back. Experience in this place has taught her that both of those things will happen, but-- well, Ange doesn't necessarily want to trust that to be the case.
But she doesn't want to voice that paranoid, negative angle when Yosuke is clearly already having a hard time. The possibility that everyone will come back and Yosuke will be able to talk it over exists - so it's not a lie to present it to him. ]
It probably won't be easy, but.. [ There's a slight pause.
It almost looks like she's thinking of something, the look in the girl's eyes a little far-off. ] It's better than never talking about it at all. It feels worse until you've talked about it.
[ Another thing she has learned from experience, even if she doesn't voice that background information. ]
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Mikey, however...]
I'm not really good at saying sorry. Especially when both parties know I'm a hypocrite.
[Yu might not call him out completely... but it's highly possible Mikey would.]
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Hypocrite?
[ That's the part that gets to her. Yosuke not being good at saying sorry - sure, she can see that, considering everything she has seen him say and do over time. Besides, there's lots of people who aren't very good at it, and this entire situation being so big makes it even more awkward.
But the other part.. ]
Why would that make you a hypocrite? Do you not want to apologize to them? [ Is that why? Ange can't wrap her head around it just yet, even though she really is trying. ]
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[but he fidgets with the headphones around his neck now, not putting them on but sort of rotating them to do something with his hands.]
But one of my friends hurt the other, and I didn't forgive him for doing it. And now I almost did the same thing, and... isn't it not fair that I want to be forgiven?
[he's not really looking at Ange now, moreso looking at the ground than anything else.]
That's why I'm a hypocrite.
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.. hey, come on. [ She can't help but say after a moment. ] I think you should talk a little more about this. But not out here.
[ She can't help but glance around them, like she's worried about some Gnosia approaching them even now. ]
I know you just have to trust I'm not planning on killing you, but we could at least sit at my place to talk about this and have a little less risk of getting murdered while talking about something important.
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details.
he runs his hand through his hair next, making himself not think about it.]
Yeah, I'll follow you.
[whatever!!]
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But it's not like Ange is an idiot. She figures there's got to be some sort of reason for it - and given what's going on, it more than likely has something to do with this entire Gnosia business in the first place.
So it feels better to not address it. It'll just hurt Yosuke, she's sure. So Ange wordlessly starts leading him down the streets - keeping a careful eye out along the way - until she arrives at her house. It seems that her housemates aren't here right now, which is kind of worrying, but.. well, maybe it'll at least give them some privacy.
Leading him over to the living room, she gestures at the couch for Yosuke to sit down. ]
Do you want some tea?
[ Hey, who says even a blunt weird girl like Ange can't be a proper host when having guests over.. ]
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Uhh... I don't know if I'm a tea person. I'll just take some water or something.
[that works, doesn't it?]
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When she sits down and takes in a breath, Ange's mind slowly moves back to the thing Yosuke mentioned before she dragged him here. The thing she didn't want to calmly discuss out on the streets while everything is so chaotic and dangerous. ]
Can you tell me about the time one of your friends hurt the other?
[ A slight pause, and then she adds: ]
You don't have to use names, if that makes it easier.
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but he doesn't really care, honestly. he probably needs someone's opinion that wasn't involved in their mess.]
In the tower a few months ago... my friend hurt my best friend. He killed him, actually.
[he takes a sip of water.]
He wasn't himself then. Said he was possessed or something, but I still didn't forgive him. I couldn't. But then, with all this stuff going on... I tried to hurt my best friend. That other friend stopped me before I could. And now... I feel all sorts of shitty about it.
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You don't believe that not being in control of yourself is an excuse for the things you do?
[ Her question is asked with a pretty neutral tone. The judgement that might come with that sort of question when coming from most people doesn't seem to be there - mostly since there's no real emotion in the way she asks it at all, sipping her tea. ]
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I feel like I shouldn't, since I was so quick to judge that other person when he lost control. But now, having gone through it myself... it's different.
[he pretty much completely understands Mikey now. he's just not sure what to do with the info at all.]
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Then closes it again. Mostly because what she was about to say sounded kind of mean, even if Ange didn't intend for it to come across that way. Usually she just says it all the same, but this time she finds herself holding back, like she wants to be a little more delicate about this situation. Both with what Yosuke has told her recently in mind, and also because this seems like a pretty sensitive situation.
So Ange tries again - a little more carefully, this time. ]
You know you're allowed to change your mind, right..? Maybe it was just hard for you to imagine what it would be like in that person's shoes back when you got so mad at him. But now you know. It's something you could talk with him about, if you'd want to.
[ And, you know, when they're not in the middle of dying and all. ]
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but there's still a lot of guilt hanging around him. like he probably still is a hypocrite no matter what he does from here on out.]
I guess... it's still hard, though. Or maybe that's what all this shit's all about.
[not about him exactly, but...]
They're always doing some sort of stupid tests or something around here.
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Sure, this place's entire theming has been centered around that. Even way back when she first showed up here. But with everything that's happened so far and with how cynical Ange is, it feels easy to just assume this much. ]
Besides, if they'd really do all that to you and your friends just to teach you a lesson about that, then that's literally crazy. Who'd do something like that?
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