[As she looks at him longer, Visas finds that his nature is coming more into focus. It is not a pleasant one. There is a core of malevolence in him that seems to extend deep, like a gravity well.
It makes it easy to believe that his statement is not a sarcastic or facetious one.]
What makes you think it is likely to be either? I have seen gruesome deaths, and none of them have been anything but gruesome. They have neither humor, nor glory.
Well, the death I have tried so hard to deserve was denied me when I came here.
Quite troubling, that.
[The robot vibrates and he bends over to set it on the floor.]
It would have been a good death, I think.
But since I am now here and very much alive another end must await me. I intend to play my cards so that my end is either one that leaves an impact or, at the very least, leaves an amusing headline.
"Local scientist slaughtered by invading Gnosia" is hardly compelling.
[He looks Visas over, smiles, and says...]
If you had any say in the matter wouldn't you prefer for your gruesome death to be somehow memorable?
[Memorable? What does that matter to him, Visas wonders. In her days with Nihilus, she craved an end to her suffering, one that he continually denied her. But she had no thought of being remembered for it. She simply wanted the meaningless of her continued existence to cease.]
I have yearned for death, but no longer.
Why does it matter to you, what people say of it after it is over? You would not be there to know of it.
[Somehow in all the questions people had answered for her, that hadn't come up. But she hadn't thought to ask what happened after death... she had no reason to think that it would be anything other than what happened everywhere else.]
I have never heard of anywhere where the dead return. How is it possible?
At one time, I would have joined you, and gladly. [She has come to understand that the "people" that make up most of Aldrip's population are animated mannequins, more or less, and it has been tempting to cut one open to inspect its workings.
But the Jedi Exile, who treated her droids with such affection, would not have done such a thing... would not have approved of someone who followed her doing so.] Why does it fascinate you so?
Why does our collective inability to die fascinate me?
[Fandaniel lifts a hand and wiggles his fingers in amusement.]
How can it not?
If we cannot die that means we are so dearly important that even death is denied us as a means to escape our prison. Is learning more about this not worth joining me and gladly so?
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[He knows what he must do but the why and how of this entire situation remain frustratingly out of his grasp.
The robot under his arm seems to blink then its bright eyes are replaced by a dark screen holding a single word: DOCTOR
Fandaniel slowly turns his gaze to the robot and flicks it with his finger until the word dissipates.]
Quite.
But let's not tell the world that. I want my inevitable gruesome demise to be grand or hilarious. You're not helping.
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It makes it easy to believe that his statement is not a sarcastic or facetious one.]
What makes you think it is likely to be either? I have seen gruesome deaths, and none of them have been anything but gruesome. They have neither humor, nor glory.
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Quite troubling, that.
[The robot vibrates and he bends over to set it on the floor.]
It would have been a good death, I think.
But since I am now here and very much alive another end must await me. I intend to play my cards so that my end is either one that leaves an impact or, at the very least, leaves an amusing headline.
"Local scientist slaughtered by invading Gnosia" is hardly compelling.
[He looks Visas over, smiles, and says...]
If you had any say in the matter wouldn't you prefer for your gruesome death to be somehow memorable?
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I have yearned for death, but no longer.
Why does it matter to you, what people say of it after it is over? You would not be there to know of it.
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Because I would soon be back, wouldn't I?
That is one of the grisly truths I've learned about this world. Our ends are not ends for very long. The dead return. Over and over.
[He lifts a hand to his chest.]
But that doesn't mean I wish to throw my life away on anything trite! I want my death, my first death, to be a worthy one!
Hopefully, in time, I will be returned to my star, and to my true final demise.
[For a moment he is silent, still looking her over with a calculating eye.]
...You did know that the dead return here, yes?
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[Somehow in all the questions people had answered for her, that hadn't come up. But she hadn't thought to ask what happened after death... she had no reason to think that it would be anything other than what happened everywhere else.]
I have never heard of anywhere where the dead return. How is it possible?
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Admittedly, I only heard about this as idle gossip. Nobody has sat me down to explain how this world handles death in any detail.
[His silver eyes narrow and he rubs his chin thoughtfully.]
An experiment is in order.
What say you and I have a night out on the town and commit a murder or two? All in the name of science, of course!
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At one time, I would have joined you, and gladly. [She has come to understand that the "people" that make up most of Aldrip's population are animated mannequins, more or less, and it has been tempting to cut one open to inspect its workings.
But the Jedi Exile, who treated her droids with such affection, would not have done such a thing... would not have approved of someone who followed her doing so.] Why does it fascinate you so?
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[Fandaniel lifts a hand and wiggles his fingers in amusement.]
How can it not?
If we cannot die that means we are so dearly important that even death is denied us as a means to escape our prison. Is learning more about this not worth joining me and gladly so?