[ Toph of course catches the subtle indications of relief in Vi's body language, and it makes her a little more forthcoming than her previous half-sarcastic attitude. ]
I have a friend at home with a sister like that. I don't exactly get it, but I'm not going to tell you you're wrong about your own family.
[ There's a short pause as Toph sorts through how she wants to respond to this, but ultimately she's as blunt as ever, just tempered a bit out of deference for Vi being her friend. ]
Don't take this as me defending her, because she sounds like she seriously needs to be taken down, but you better get over this "I hope there's an innocent girl still in there somewhere" shtick fast.
[logically, Vi knows Toph is right. she knows more keenly than she lets on that her sister has changed completely since they were kids. she's quiet for a long moment, exhaling through her nose as she slumps a little.]
... I know.
[it's probably the first time she's ever really admitted it to someone who Wasn't Caitlyn.]
Before my last father figure died, he told me to take care of her. I ended up leaving her. So in a way... I really did shape who she is now.
[ Toph lets out a breath of frustrated impatience. ]
Does she get any credit for her own decisions? No offense, Vi, but if someone tried to tell me they made me who I am, I'd be really pissed off.
[ It's not about guilt or ducking responsibility; it's that good or bad, accomplishment or mistake, everyone has to be accountable for their own actions. As staunchly self-determined as she is, Toph believes that absolutely. ]
[she looks back at Toph, now. she's incredibly wise, and it reminds her of Ekko. of how he'd grown into someone who had that kind of mindset too, and maybe had seen and dealt with stuff that she probably doesn't want to acknowledge.]
Hmph... she's almost kind of proud of it.
[she runs her hand through her hair, and rolls her shoulders.]
You're pretty smart for a kid. You always been that way?
[ This happens to hit on an area Toph herself is extremely sensitive about, one she's thought through and turned over in her mind countless times. Why can't her parents just accept her for who she's chosen to be? She's proud of who that is and the work she's put in.
In the case of Vi's sister, maybe it's more like you don't get to escape the consequences of who you've chosen to be -- but the key word there is chosen. It takes agency.
Toph snorts. ] Probably. [ She quiets a little. ] Just... you know, my parents don't think anything I do could really be me, either. And it hurts.
[there's a long silence. that kind of struck home too, but it still hurts her. was Jinx... just this chaos incarnate? was that who she really was? was she always like this, on the inside? she knew she was a troubled child... but to grow up like this?
was she always predestined to be who she was now, with or without Vi?
well. she quirks her lips into a half smile to kind of deflect while she considers:]
Toph, you can't see anything.
[there's a long silence on her end after that.]
But I think I understand what you're trying to say. Jinx was just meant to be some sort of mad genius from the start, probably. She's been working on bombs since she was old enough to know what those were.
[ She snorts, giving her a light smack on the arm. ]
Don't think the blind jokes will distract me, and stop making excuses. It's not about who she's meant to be [ her disdain for that concept is clear ] it's about who she chooses to be.
They can be really bad choices, but nobody's helpless.
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I have a friend at home with a sister like that. I don't exactly get it, but I'm not going to tell you you're wrong about your own family.
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crazy-ass lil sisters
at least she's not pushing the subject. even though she didn't think Toph really would because for someone so young... she's pretty reasonable.]
For me, it's because I know she used to not be like that. And there's still some part of me that hopes that innocent girl is in there somewhere.
[a beat.]
Even though I know she's not.
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Don't take this as me defending her, because she sounds like she seriously needs to be taken down, but you better get over this "I hope there's an innocent girl still in there somewhere" shtick fast.
Whoever she is, it's not up to you.
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... I know.
[it's probably the first time she's ever really admitted it to someone who Wasn't Caitlyn.]
Before my last father figure died, he told me to take care of her. I ended up leaving her. So in a way... I really did shape who she is now.
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[ Toph lets out a breath of frustrated impatience. ]
Does she get any credit for her own decisions? No offense, Vi, but if someone tried to tell me they made me who I am, I'd be really pissed off.
[ It's not about guilt or ducking responsibility; it's that good or bad, accomplishment or mistake, everyone has to be accountable for their own actions. As staunchly self-determined as she is, Toph believes that absolutely. ]
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Hmph... she's almost kind of proud of it.
[she runs her hand through her hair, and rolls her shoulders.]
You're pretty smart for a kid. You always been that way?
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In the case of Vi's sister, maybe it's more like you don't get to escape the consequences of who you've chosen to be -- but the key word there is chosen. It takes agency.
Toph snorts. ] Probably. [ She quiets a little. ] Just... you know, my parents don't think anything I do could really be me, either. And it hurts.
So I guess I can see the other side.
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was she always predestined to be who she was now, with or without Vi?
well. she quirks her lips into a half smile to kind of deflect while she considers:]
Toph, you can't see anything.
[there's a long silence on her end after that.]
But I think I understand what you're trying to say. Jinx was just meant to be some sort of mad genius from the start, probably. She's been working on bombs since she was old enough to know what those were.
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Don't think the blind jokes will distract me, and stop making excuses. It's not about who she's meant to be [ her disdain for that concept is clear ] it's about who she chooses to be.
They can be really bad choices, but nobody's helpless.
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I know. Maybe I just need to learn to accept that.
[she reaches out to pat Toph's back, though.]
Thanks for the advice, shorty.