[ he frowns. fear of love? hardly. once, he'd been desperate for it. if only nil would love him like he loved nel. if only his father would see him as useful. if only there had been a person in the world who saw rafal and wanted him here.

foolish. he had been blind the whole time. ]

It would far more sad, I think, for some poor soul to love me. Knowing what I am and what I've done . . . that seems ready for tragedy.