[ The tension in Minato's shoulders eases a bit as the bright red fades from behind Scott's shades. He doesn't speak, but nods to acknowledge Scott's apology. Slowly, he lowers his hand from his injured shoulder to rest it in his lap. ]
...I'm not sure.
[ He doesn't know whether it's a satisfactory answer to Scott, even if it's the truth. His eyes drift shut for a moment as he tries to decide how to best explain what's on his mind. ]
Ever since arriving here, others have told me I should use this time to "live."
[ In fact, Minato feels Scott is one of those very people who've advised him to do just that.
Minato opens his eyes, only to glance down at the sand. His expression twists a bit, uncertain as to whether he should continue. If he shared what was truly on his mind, would Scott be angry again? Even now, he doesn't want to upset the other teen.
But Scott asked. Minato doesn't want to lie to him, and even now, he likes Scott enough to be sincere. And in any event, he's still one of the very few handful of people who knew of Minato's ultimate fate. ]
No one ever thinks they'll get a second chance, so... I never thought about what I'd want to do.
[ He shakes his head a bit. ]
I didn't think I'd make it this far.
[ He'd lived those seventeen years passively, waiting for it all to stop someday. And while he'd learned life was worth living for the sake of the people you meet along the way, he'd never considered what he might like to do for himself. ]
I've tried thinking about it, but... I'm still figuring it out.
[ At the very least, he knows there are others who are rooting for him in their own ways. Kotone, Manjiro, Sha-Ming, even Shinjiro. It hasn't been easy though. On top of that, in between mulling it all over, the Council decided to hit him with more intense thoughts of death. It seems the simmering stress from being asked one too many times what he wanted out of life, combined with his sentencing, manifested in a berserk Thanatos.
Finally, Minato glances up at Scott with a pensive expression. ]
...I think Thanatos was trying to remind me that it's... important to know, because life is temporary.
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...I'm not sure.
[ He doesn't know whether it's a satisfactory answer to Scott, even if it's the truth. His eyes drift shut for a moment as he tries to decide how to best explain what's on his mind. ]
Ever since arriving here, others have told me I should use this time to "live."
[ In fact, Minato feels Scott is one of those very people who've advised him to do just that.
Minato opens his eyes, only to glance down at the sand. His expression twists a bit, uncertain as to whether he should continue. If he shared what was truly on his mind, would Scott be angry again? Even now, he doesn't want to upset the other teen.
But Scott asked. Minato doesn't want to lie to him, and even now, he likes Scott enough to be sincere. And in any event, he's still one of the very few handful of people who knew of Minato's ultimate fate. ]
No one ever thinks they'll get a second chance, so... I never thought about what I'd want to do.
[ He shakes his head a bit. ]
I didn't think I'd make it this far.
[ He'd lived those seventeen years passively, waiting for it all to stop someday. And while he'd learned life was worth living for the sake of the people you meet along the way, he'd never considered what he might like to do for himself. ]
I've tried thinking about it, but... I'm still figuring it out.
[ At the very least, he knows there are others who are rooting for him in their own ways. Kotone, Manjiro, Sha-Ming, even Shinjiro. It hasn't been easy though. On top of that, in between mulling it all over, the Council decided to hit him with more intense thoughts of death. It seems the simmering stress from being asked one too many times what he wanted out of life, combined with his sentencing, manifested in a berserk Thanatos.
Finally, Minato glances up at Scott with a pensive expression. ]
...I think Thanatos was trying to remind me that it's... important to know, because life is temporary.