Well, no. I didn't plan on it and it actually sounds pretty silly when you phrase it that way!

[ The smile spreads to his voice. Evidence that he finds that at least half way amusing even if it may be at his own expense. Capturing the uneasy gaze feels appropriate as the gears turn behind his own. His mouth purses to the side. It only takes a moment for Nikolai to figure out how he'd like to explain this whim even though it won't help his case in not appearing as a basket case. ]

Listen kiddo, to put a completely foolish concept into words—this feels like a outcome I have complete control over.