[His tears twist something in her heart, something that's still hard to grasp, even now, even a full year after everything that had happened back home, a full year here in Aldrip. Her fingertips brush against his cheeks as if that alone could somehow stem his tears, if she could do anything to make him feel better.
In the past, she'd have thought maybe it would have been better not to tell him. That sparring him this pain until it's too late to avoid anymore would be for the best. After what happened to Shinji, though, that had gotten harder to justify. Seeing her friends again here after what had happened to her, hearing from them how much they'd missed her...
She can't do that to Scott. It's not right. Eventually, she takes a deep breath and glances up toward his glasses with a wan but genuine smile.]
When I go, I don't want you to forget how to live for yourself. Okay? I know it's really hard, but... [It's so, so hard. In some ways, she'd been grateful to have the distraction of going to school after Shinji had been put in the hospital. Scott would need that reminder; she's pretty sure it's not egotistical to think so.
That's what she's afraid of, more than anything. She's not afraid of dying, but now, she's afraid of what her dying might mean for her friends. That her being gone will hurt Scott so badly that he'll just stop. Another deep breath, and she adds softly, as firmly as she can muster,] Please just keep living as best you can. Promise me?
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[His tears twist something in her heart, something that's still hard to grasp, even now, even a full year after everything that had happened back home, a full year here in Aldrip. Her fingertips brush against his cheeks as if that alone could somehow stem his tears, if she could do anything to make him feel better.
In the past, she'd have thought maybe it would have been better not to tell him. That sparring him this pain until it's too late to avoid anymore would be for the best. After what happened to Shinji, though, that had gotten harder to justify. Seeing her friends again here after what had happened to her, hearing from them how much they'd missed her...
She can't do that to Scott. It's not right. Eventually, she takes a deep breath and glances up toward his glasses with a wan but genuine smile.]
When I go, I don't want you to forget how to live for yourself. Okay? I know it's really hard, but... [It's so, so hard. In some ways, she'd been grateful to have the distraction of going to school after Shinji had been put in the hospital. Scott would need that reminder; she's pretty sure it's not egotistical to think so.
That's what she's afraid of, more than anything. She's not afraid of dying, but now, she's afraid of what her dying might mean for her friends. That her being gone will hurt Scott so badly that he'll just stop. Another deep breath, and she adds softly, as firmly as she can muster,] Please just keep living as best you can. Promise me?