[ He shakes his head roughly, fists balling up. Even though he has passed his initial trial, faced the harsh reality of his future, acceptance had only brought with it despair. He is not the person who has been on that journey of reflection with the Warrior of Light. He is not that man yet. ]

Just because I have accepted my failure of duty, that doesn't mean I have to like it. And knowing that I have failed, there is no reason for me to continue fighting for our cause, is there? Nothing I do matters. I can step back and let this farce play out to its inevitable end. In fact, why don't I simply kill myself now and save you all the trouble, hmm?

[ A snap of his fingers can easily make Solus' old Garlean revolver if he so desires. ]