[ had he known that line of thought, dostoevsky would reply that it is only gogol that is dancing over or close to any lines. he's too uninterested, too holy, too himself for these things but there is no denying the way fyodor at the very least tolerates, if not downright encourages it by letting it happen. scheming to catch gogol unaware is not on his cards; he doesn't care, he absolutely feels nothing but a vague, distant fondness for his friend—that is a lie he'll have to confess to later.
there is a dull flatness present in his eyes when he kneels between gogol's legs, spidery touch skittering along gogol's thigh up to his side to press nail-bitten fingers on his side. he must kneel properly, as if he's about to take communion back home, the floor always uncomfortable to his poor, frail body. both hands need to be placed on his friend, without overt gentleness.
instead, he presses the skin between thumb and forefinger then gently pinches it so he can begin the work. the needle doesn't pierce skin, instead dostoevsky is looking up at gogol, head tilted to meet those batting lashes head on. ]
Very well, I will nicely tell you that if you don't behave those gifts I bought for you will be forfeited.
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there is a dull flatness present in his eyes when he kneels between gogol's legs, spidery touch skittering along gogol's thigh up to his side to press nail-bitten fingers on his side. he must kneel properly, as if he's about to take communion back home, the floor always uncomfortable to his poor, frail body. both hands need to be placed on his friend, without overt gentleness.
instead, he presses the skin between thumb and forefinger then gently pinches it so he can begin the work. the needle doesn't pierce skin, instead dostoevsky is looking up at gogol, head tilted to meet those batting lashes head on. ]
Very well, I will nicely tell you that if you don't behave those gifts I bought for you will be forfeited.