[Just a shrug, again with her one good shoulder as she looks on ahead. Even if she'd wanted to, she wouldn't have. Looking someone in the eye and killing them, when she'd watched Shinji come close before her eyes... isn't something she can do.]
We've had to leave people for dead before. Enemies. Friends. [Her voice is that curious flavor of neutral that it falls into when she doesn't know what emotion she's supposed to express.] I had to watch someone I cared about walk away knowing he'd disappear forever, and I'd have to fight and destroy what he became.
[Her voice cracks a bit, and even if it hurts, she raises her free hand to rub her eyes.]
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[Just a shrug, again with her one good shoulder as she looks on ahead. Even if she'd wanted to, she wouldn't have. Looking someone in the eye and killing them, when she'd watched Shinji come close before her eyes... isn't something she can do.]
We've had to leave people for dead before. Enemies. Friends. [Her voice is that curious flavor of neutral that it falls into when she doesn't know what emotion she's supposed to express.] I had to watch someone I cared about walk away knowing he'd disappear forever, and I'd have to fight and destroy what he became.
[Her voice cracks a bit, and even if it hurts, she raises her free hand to rub her eyes.]
I'm tired of it.